Timeless Tales
The House That Built Me
When I was a little girl, visiting relatives was a treat. Although they only lived a few miles away, my folks acted like we were going cross country. I suppose they would have been considered introverts nowadays but back then they just called us homebodies.
I grew up in a Czech community in Central Texas where there were small towns. Now, these small towns are not on most maps anymore. They were either consolidated into bigger towns that were consolidated themselves further down the line, or they just vanished. Roads were named after them so when the local general stores finally got torn down, they were still there in the older folks’ minds.
But I digress. We were talking about visiting.
I enjoyed going to my grandparents’ houses. My stepdad’s grandparents’ home was tucked down in a field off Red Ranger Road. (Red Ranger was one of those towns I mentioned but I will talk about that in another tale.)
I loved that house. I had the layout of it memorized as it was what I considered my dream home. It was what my late husband would have called a shot-gun house. Back in the day the front door would be lined up with the back door so one could shoot the shotgun from the front door and get a trespasser in the backyard. Scary but true. In actuality, the design just made it where the breeze would flow through the screen doors easily and the houses would be cooled.
When you entered, you stepped into a large living room. Now, I realize that the living room may not have been as big as I remembered. I was a scrawny, gangly thing back then. But regardless, in the corner was a wood-burning stove for heat. A TV sat on a table but I never remember it ever being on other than to watch the news. A long couch trailed one wall and a wooden coffee table sat in front of it. Sitting on that couch was a bit like sitting on a wooden chair. Not comfortable but it served its purpose.
Next to the living room was the kitchen which I swear was bigger than that living room. A big square dining table sat in the middle surrounded by chairs. A door to a pantry we were never allowed in stood closed in the back corner. Two walls were lined with counters and an icebox. For those of you that don’t know the difference between an icebox and a refrigerator, this is it. A refrigerator is cooled by electricity flowing through coils while an icebox is cooled totally by a giant cube of ice. When I say giant, think of the size of a modern (2026) microwave. That’s it. Everything stayed chilled in there.
From the living room, the hallway led to the backdoor, as I said before. The first door to the left was always closed. My mom used to say it was granny’s sewing room. God asked permission to go in there. The next room was my Uncle Johnny’s bedroom. He kept it open and aired. Not to mention spotless. I remember seeing his bed made with a beautiful, scalloped quilt granny had made. On the opposite side of the hallway from Uncle Johnnie’s room was my grandparents’ bedroom. It also stayed open and tidy. Across from Granny’s sewing room was Uncle Gus’s room. It stayed closed. Yeah, even country folks have its rebels.
Granny kept that house tight as a drum. She had a bowl of candy on the coffee table but loose wrappers were forbidden. There was also a small bowl of sugar mints. I loved them a bit much. Granny would limit me to one then make me go outside to play if I snuck another. To be honest, I got sent outside for a lot of things. Running down the hallway, not sitting still, asking a lot of questions about silly things. Yeah, I played outside more than in.
When I was inside, I remember delicious lunches at that dining table. Chicken noodle soup straight from a jar she canned herself was my favorite. We would have slices of homemade bread to dip in and never wasted a drop. I have tried to make the same flavor in my own soups, but it is still a work in progress.
Lots of home-canned foods came out of that mystery pantry. It must have been huge! I used to watch her from the kitchen doorway while she canned. Sometimes she would have my mom join her. Us kids weren’t allowed in there unless it was time to eat. She canned soups, and stews, but I was so fascinated watching her can meats. Sausages, chicken (sometimes half a chicken squished into one jar!) and beef filled the jars and pressure cookers were rattling on the stove throughout the day. All I could think of was I want to be them someday.
As it stands, I am working on using what I learned along the way. All of my grandmas and mom taught me so much I want to teach my kids. I am not as proficient as they were, but every run starts with a step.
Of Birds and Tea
Mildred set the tea service on the coffee table in front of her husband. The tiny cups donning Victorian roses jiggled and clinked in the matching saucers cradling them. She spread a shawl over Bill’s lap and sat across from him. Bill inhaled the herbal aromas before sipping, as did she.
“So, we are married.” It was more of a statement than a question. Stoic, direct, resolute. His eyes glimmered briefly.
“Yes.”
“For how long?”
“Sixty-four years, dear.” Mildred took another sip of tea and looked at him over the rim.
“And why don’t I remember any of this?”
“Do you remember anything today?” She sat her saucer on the tray and sat back with her cup.
“Of course, I do.”
“Of course.”
He sat his cup in its saucer and stared. Beckoning. Ordering. She poured him another cup, dropped in two sugars. Mildred watched the birds flit across the windowsill, not as clearly as before. Nothing was as clear as before. Before when? Yesterday? A decade ago? Today was clear enough.
“What is your name?” The question burned inside her, but not as bad as it had the first time.
“I am Mildred.”
“Why don’t I know you?”
“You will tomorrow, Bill.”
“You make no sense at all, woman.”
Mildred freshened her tea.
“What is this place? Where am I stationed?”
“You are retired. Have been for twenty-five years.”
“I would never have retired. You are lying.”
Mildred thought back on the number of wars, transfers, and tents that were supposed to be houses she had endured. Once, while he was off directing skirmishes south of Seoul, she swept a dirt floor of a shack. It was whitewashed to make presentable, but a shack, nonetheless. She made do. So did he. Perhaps, she remembers that posting most because it was where she learned she was barren. There would be no more Ashcroft’s to carry the family line.
“What is my rank?”
“Bird Colonel.”
His eyes bore into her. “I was in Germany.”
“Yes. Do you remember when?”
“Of course, I do, woman! It was…it…” Bill’s brow furrowed, and he sank back into the cushions. “Where is Sally?”
“Your sister passed ten years ago. I am sorry.”
Her husband’s fortitude faltered. “Sally? How?”
“She had a stroke, dear. It happened suddenly. Death was instant.” Mildred had most answers practiced to the point they sounded cold. Even now, she knew she sounded like an outsider relating the evening news.
“As it should be.” He straightened and sat rigid at the edge of the couch cushion. “Where are my cigars?”
“You quit, darling.”
“Why in blazes would I do that?”
“Doctor’s orders.”
“Doctors don’t know crap! Get my cigar.”
“I will get some for you this evening.” Mildred dropped two cubes of sugar into his cup. None for hers.
Bill sipped his tea and coughed.
“Do we have children?”
“None.”
“What’s wrong with you?”
Mildred watched a squirrel join in with the birds at play. Two black birds flew away in a huff but soon returned. Bill sat his forehead in the palm of his hand and closed his eyes.
“Are you all right, dear?” She sat back and watched Bill without expression. Darkness clouded across the room. His head now rested on the couch’s overstuffed arm, and she forced a shuttered breath.
Teatime was an important social act that was too often ignored. It had been the center of peace talks, war rooms, and social gatherings at the women’s mess hall. Mildred tried to focus on the teapot that had been the vessel of their salvation. Their release. She could no longer taste the almond and wondered if he had noticed.
She saw movement outside her window and smiled. Birds covered the lawn.
“Bill, do you see the birds? Bill? Oh, it’s teatime. When did you sneak that in? Bill?” His cup of tea teetered and spilt on his trousers. She tried to speak up, but nothing came. Nothing about his spilt tea or her broken teacup at the edge of the table.
